by Gloria Furman
I screamed so loud that I thought for sure the kids and the neighbor’s kids would wake up.
It was around midnight and I was pulling the curtains shut in our bedroom so we could go to sleep.
And there it was.
A Gecko of Unusual Size. (Not the one you see pictured here. It was a much bigger, uglier one with [probably] really slimy suction cups on his hands.)
I ran to get a plastic bag so I could grab the gecko (with the bag over my hand) and dispose of it properly (ie. down the garbage chute in the hallway). But when I unfolded the curtain to do so it jumped over me and onto the floor and ran under the bed.
And of course, when I looked under the bed with my flashlight app on my phone I couldn’t see a single thing except for our suitcases. So of course I had to pull out all of the suitcases and open them up one by one. When that didn’t turn up the GUS and a whole hour had passed by I decided to call it quits. And of course, my adrenaline was still pumping and it took quite some time to fall asleep. I convinced myself that the GUS had climbed back into the air conditioning vents from whence it came.
I believed this until the other day when my daughter shrieked, “Oh! Hello! Come here, little guy.” For a split second I thought one of her notorious imaginary friends had returned. It was the GUS. We trapped it and bagged it.
When we took the GUS to the parking garage to send it off with well-wishes, I got this uneasy feeling that the gecko had been living in our apartment for nearly two weeks. I must have turned pale because one of the kids asked if I was okay.
Some people feel uneasy like this when they realize that “God is everywhere” and “God knows what’s in your heart.”
But when we are reconciled to God through his Son Jesus Christ, the nearness of God is our good (Ps. 73:28). Knowledge of his omnipresence and omniscience bring us deep comfort because we know that we didn’t love him first, but he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins (1 John 4:10).
Herman Bavinck talks about this in The Doctrine of God, and beautifully describes how God is nearer to us than we can comprehend.
“When you wish to do something evil, you retire from the public into your house where no enemy may see you; from those places of your house which are open and visible to the eyes of men you remove yourself into your room; even in your room you fear some witness from another quarter; you retire into your heart, there you meditate: he is more inward than your heart.
Wherever, therefore, you shall have fled, there is he.
From yourself, whither will you flee? Will you not follow yourself wherever you shall flee? But since there is One more inward even than yourself, there is no place where you may flee from God angry but to God reconciled. There is no place at all whither you may flee. Will you flee from him? Flee unto him.”
(HT: Erik Raymond)
ABOUT THE WRITER
Gloria (@gloriafurman) is mostly from Texas. In 2008 she moved to the Middle East with her husband Dave to plant Redeemer Church of Dubai. They have three fun kiddos and Gloria enjoys serving the ladies in her community as a doula. Gloria is the author of Glimpses of Grace: Treasuring the Gospel in Your Home (Crossway 2013).