by Britney Hamm
My toddler daughter loves to eat. She is tiny, but when she’s hungry, she can polish off unbelievable amounts of food.
When she first started eating solids she had a strange mealtime quirk. With a tray still full of food right in front of her, she’d look at me and baby sign “more.” I’d point to the food on her tray and say, “You already have some. You need to finish this and then you can have more.”
Still, she would plead with me for more while ignoring what sat in front of her. She could see more food waiting for her on the table. But still she begged for more before what she had was gone.
Why? She wanted to make sure there would be enough to satisfy her raging appetite. Her raging appetite and fear of not getting enough clouded her knowledge of our faithfulness and goodness to provide for her needs. My husband wisely says, “What we fear controls us.” In this situation, my daughter’s fear of not getting enough to eat controlled her, led her to doubt what she knew to be true, ignore what she had in front of her, and respond with anxious and incessant requests for more.
How I’m Just Like My Toddler
Nearly every time we went through this ritual at a meal, I thought: this is exactly what I do with God. God gives me exactly what I need for the present moment. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like enough—whether it be time, strength, energy, food, clothing, money. Yet, out of my fear of not having enough for the next moment, I doubt his goodness and his providence. I look at him and say, “More please, God? I’m just not sure this will be enough for the future. This may cover me now, but what about when it runs out?” I want the assurance of knowing that there will be more of whatever it is—that there will be enough, my appetites won’t be left unmet, and I won’t be left needing. Like my daughter, I’m prone to look at what is in front of me, deem it insufficient, and beg for more.
In my anxious attempts to secure more for later, I fail to experience the sufficiency of what has been set in front of me. My fear of there not being enough controls me Jesus addresses this anxious state of mind and behavior in Matthew 6:25-34. He calls this a problem of faith, addressing us as “ye of little faith.” We doubt that God is good, that God cares about our needs, and that God will provide for those needs. And ultimately, we doubt that God himself is enough for us.
The Gospel Solution
What is God’s remedy for our anxious hearts? We are to trust that God is good. We are to believe Jesus when he says, “Your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” We are to pursue his kingdom and his purposes, and trust him to provide the rest.
The solution to my “more please” heart must start with the gospel. I cannot seek his kingdom and receive his loving care apart from the good news that through Christ’s atoning work on the cross, my most desperate needs have been met. Jesus paid for my sin and gave me his own perfect righteousness in exchange. God is my true portion, and I am his child.
In the same way that my daughter must learn to trust that we have her best interests in mind, I must trust that God cares for me, and that he—the all-powerful God—will satisfy me. I must trust that he knows how much I need at the present moment. Even if it doesn’t seem like enough to me, God assures me that it is.
Because God is my portion, I can trust in his goodness and faithfulness to his children. I can be freed from the anxiety of a “more please” heart. I can seek his kingdom and rest in his care as I wait upon him to provide for my needs. Whatever I have in front of me will always be enough when God is first enough for me.
ABOUT THE WRITER
Britney lives in Missouri with her campus missionary husband, Travis, and their blue-eyed children Ambrielle and Elias. Brit is a former dancer who had horse jockey aspirations and played street hockey. Her well-rounded interests also include theology, chocolate, disciple-making and ballroom dancing. But her favorite thing to talk about is how God breaks into our lives with his grace.
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